To people that deliberately post spoilers, there’s a special place in hell for you.
Long Post Ahead
I haven’t actually posted much in awhile, so here’s an update of what’s been going on in my life. I didn’t get to keep the job over the holidays in fact they scheduled me for two days and then I was never scheduled for the rest of the season. So I’m not sure what happened there, I’m still working off the books at my one job, and basically besides that I’m looking for regular work, and college prep schools and it eats a lot of my time.
Basically my parents don’t enjoy the fact that I’m “not doing anything with my life” and whilst talking with my mom the other week she asked why I was being so bull headed about going to school. So I told her its the same as its always been, I don’t have the money I don’t qualify for financial aid and I don’t want to be stuck taking out loans again. In 2009 I went to school for a major I wanted nothing to do with was forced to leave a job where I was making almost $12 dollars an hour, to jump head first into debt and all it did was make me so depressed that most days I wanted to curl up and just (pardon my language here) fucking die. So after explaining to my mother that I didn’t want to fall into debt again, because I wouldn’t be able to handle the 50 hour weeks of bleak nothingness working my hands to the bone just to pay back a loan. Basically telling her that if she forces my hand on this it is more than likely she’ll be forced to bury her son. She tells me that she’s willing to pay for my school never realising the stress and depression it put me through the first time. (I’m very good at compartmentalising my emotions, basically I have a good poker face because I don’t like to bother others with my feelings.)
More or less what I’m realising is that even in the light of all this I don’t really have the drive to move forward, maybe it’s because I’ve pictured my education as a dream for so long that I can’t handle it being a reality, maybe I’m just lazy, or maybe and this is the one I keep being drawn to is I’m happy with my crappy little life. The problem is no one else seems to be so I’m trying to make myself progress, to move forward and its hard. I probably just found like a whiny bitch at this point, anyway while I straighten things out its been incredibly hard for me to be active and do things on Tumblr. So sorry if this is TL;DR, but I really genuinely care about my followers even if none of you interact with me and I feel like I have a commitment to every one of you.
So before I make this “essay” any longer I’d like to thank every last one of you from the very bottom of my heart, thank you for following, thank you for taking an interest passive or otherwise, just thank you, I love every last one of you. To the new followers I’ve gained thanks, I’m not sure how my inactive blog is still gaining followers (mind you its nowhere near as rapid growth as when I was active) but thank you. So I’ll shut up now, remember if you’d ever like to talk my ask box is always open honestly I’d appreciate the conversation and don’t feel like what you have to say is stupid believe me half the crap that comes from my mouth is dumb but that choice will always be yours.
Thanks for reading!
BETTER Recap of Kill la Kill Episodes 16 - 20
Last recap didn’t have enough emotion.
And my personal favorite: The Bench Smash!
(Completely irrelevant contribution GO): That bench gif is Rea Sanka, from Sankarea: Undying Love.